Friday, October 22, 2010

1962

you spoke a concrete womb,
a people being born
in a distant land away
from your only son,
they said your temples saved
and praised you when you came
neglected your departure
on a bathroom floor.
but to his eyes that saw
the towers same as they
and edifices stoic,
passion's abstract face,
saw ev'ry mocking ray
and shadow on the wall
remnants of a distant sun,
name without a sound,
every brick a tombstone
failed affections' resting,
and memories of your face
a dead-beat god of one.
now i cry with God,
paling is my artform
sounding up to His,
weakness under strength
thunder swallows heartbeats
storm drains swallow tears

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

even my delusions have delusions.

Wednesday, October 6, 2010

i can't blow kisses
sometimes,
and if by respiration
i sigh,
the leaves off of trees
like ideas dying,
like the torn-out pages
will only reach the ground
blinks before fate

is a funny word,
worn like a coat button,
worn like a shoe
it's alone in the cold.

sometimes,
i'm sorry for my lungs
to take in air
inside your door,
as if i did not walk
here in the cold
taking of my coat
for you-
but i am no leaf,
or page torn-out,
so i'm sorry if
i breathe a breath
of self-preservation.

Friday, September 24, 2010


articulation as a house would never work,
more or less like how i say the words
and it fails to make a frame
or a door to keep you safe.

(i'm tired of pens and pencils,
vocal chords, keys and screens
wasting all their precious ways
on all these abstract things.)

a house is a world and the world a house
inside out, telling you things
about themselves and about yourself
about you and me, if you listen closely.

(i dreamt i was an envelope,
your story lived inside of me,
i hid you from the sun with lips,
and dark flourescent lights and eyes
of sentries of a mess of lines
would never smudge a line of yours
inside a paper wall, locked away
with a kiss. )

half of love is letting go
half of it is doors and windows
the things that deny each wall
so dialogue can whisper out and in.








Friday, September 17, 2010

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Saturday, September 11, 2010

every time i hear a step
on the creeky wooden floor
i hope it's you walking in
i hope, but know it's not this time;

as if you could be in one place,
as if your being was a state of "here"
that i was meant to enjoy
or not, if you walked out again.

i wish the world were just a room
and everything that it contained
i knew was mine, and concrete walls
sealed the things that were never there,

i could never lust again,
i would have no need to dream,
just the need to close my eyes,
here would be my state of being.

the world is the inverse of a room,
it is everything that hides outside
it is everything not in my mind
the world is a state of everywhere.